Thank you so much for your kind, supportive and compassionate words for me and gwensdad in our season of loss. It is hard to know what to say to people in our situation, but it meant the world to us that you said something. It has been a great comfort to know that folks from all over were touched by the life of our sweet girl and will miss her too.
Gwen would have been 13 years old today. My mom took off work and spent time with me earlier. Then gwensdad and I went out for a quiet dinner.
We miss our baby so very much and find it difficult to let her go. At the same time, it is a blessed relief to be free of constant worry about her safety and well-being. We had long dreaded the day we would lose Gwen and didn’t expect it quite so soon. But our girl enjoyed her life, she didn’t suffer in the end and had us right there with her every step of the way. This is what I desperately wanted for my daughter. The fact that nothing bad can ever happen to her leaves me grateful beyond expression.
Now we begin an uncertain journey into a radically different way of living. We’re not sure what we will do and whom we will be. The prospect of finding out is a rather frighting and overwhelming, yet also a little exciting. I hope you all will stick around for the ride.